Luke 18: 10-14
There are some
problems that have to be identified clearly and addressed plainly because they
are so important, so fundamental to our life in Christ. There are some temptations so subtle,
persistent, and dangerous that we must always be on full alert against them
because they have the power to destroy our souls. Today we call ourselves to that kind of
vigilance against pride, which often leads us to wander far from the path of
the Kingdom without even knowing it.
In
the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican, we encounter a man whom we would
probably admire based on how he lived his life.
He was just in his dealings with others, did not commit adultery,
fasted, and gave alms. He appeared to be
the model of righteousness. But he had
one fatal flaw that destroyed him spiritually.
That, of course, was pride as shown in his self-righteous judgment of
other people, especially the publican or tax collector who was also in the
Temple that day.
Like
Zacchaeus, this tax collector was a traitor to his own people by collecting
taxes from his fellow Jews to pay for the Roman army of occupation. He made his living by collecting more than
was required and then living off the difference. He was crooked and a collaborator with his
nation’s enemies. There was nothing
admirable about the outward appearance of his life. Who would not be tempted to look down upon
such a person? But this fellow had one
tremendous virtue that healed him spiritually.
That, of course, was his humility as shown when he would not even lift
his eyes up to heaven, but simply prayed from his heart as he beat his breast,
saying “God, be merciful to me a sinner.”
The Lord explained the key difference between these two men in this way:
“I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other;
for everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but he who humbles himself
will be exalted.” The Pharisee sent himself down by the weight of his own pride, while the miserable tax collector
was raised up by the Lord due to his humility.
Today
we begin the three-week period of preparation for Great Lent, which begins this
year on February 27. Lent prepares us to
follow our Lord to His cross and empty tomb.
It is a penitential season that provides tremendous opportunities for
the healing of our souls. But if we retain
the spirit of the Pharisee, the disciplines of Lent will not bring us any
closer to Christ; indeed, they will have the opposite effect. For it is possible to attend services and pray
at home in a self-congratulatory way such that, like the Pharisee, we are
really worshiping ourselves and not God.
That is called idolatry. It is
possible to corrupt prayer and church attendance as ways to build ourselves up and
put others down when we fall into the self-righteous judgment of others. It is
possible to destroy the spiritual benefit of fasting, giving to the poor, and
every other spiritual discipline through pride. We will do ourselves more harm than good by
approaching them in that way. Spiritual
disciplines are not ways of showing God how good we are or making us feel
better about ourselves; instead, they help to open the eyes of our souls to the
truth that each of us is personally the chief of sinners and totally dependent
upon our Lord’s mercy and grace.
This
is an important lesson not only as we prepare for Lent, but for every day of
our lives. We face temptations all the
time to put ourselves in the place of the angels and to view others as
demons. We may do that in relation to
particular people who have harmed us or whom we do not particularly like,
perhaps for good reason. It may have to
do with people or groups we do not know personally, but who inspire hatred and
fear in us for whatever reason. Without
denying that harms have been done or that there are risks in the world as we
know it, we must never allow our hearts and souls to be consumed by
self-righteous judgment as though it were perfectly fine for us to celebrate
how great we are in contrast to how rotten others are. If we have ever fantasized about how some
deserve condemnation and we deserve an award for good behavior, we have become
the Pharisee.
Thank
God, then, that we have seasons of intensified spiritual struggle, such as
Great Lent. For there is nothing like
them to help us see the true state of our souls a bit more clearly. Periods of intensified prayer make us aware of
how far we are from being fully present to God in the services of the Church or
in our daily lives. Try to focus on
prayer and you will likely be distracted by thoughts that seem almost
impossible to control. Something
similar happens when we try to fast. The
call to abstain from the richest and most satisfying foods often reveals a
fixation on how we simply cannot live without meat, cheese, and other rich food.
And even when we change what we eat to lighter fare, the temptation to stuff
ourselves remains. The reminder to give
generously to the poor makes us fear that we will become impoverished if we
help, even in small ways, those who are truly in need. We so easily justify extravagances for
ourselves while others starve or lack basic necessities. In
other words, the spiritual disciplines of Lent call us to humility precisely
because they reveal our spiritual weakness and brokenness. They show us our pride because we are
obsessed with putting our desires before God’s will, and we can always find
someone to look down upon in order to feel better about ourselves. When we struggle with these and other
spiritual disciplines, they help us to gain just a bit of the spiritual clarity
of that blessed tax collector who knew his own corruption so well that the
prayer of his heart was simply “God, be merciful to me, a sinner.”
The
hard truth is that we will never grow in Christ unless we intentionally take
steps that help us grow in humility, that help us embrace the truth about where
we stand before the Lord. To see that
truth does not mean having ideas about ourselves or about God. Instead, it means gaining the spiritual
health to become more fully the unique persons He created us to be in His image
and likeness. Of course, we are called
to holiness, but true holiness is incompatible with thinking that we are
holy. True holiness means becoming like
Christ, Whose humility knows no bounds, not even the Cross and the tomb. And since He calls us to become perfect as
our Heavenly Father is perfect, we are always in need of His mercy and grace as
we press on toward an infinite goal that we may never say that we have fully
met or mastered.
The
key difference between the two men in today’s gospel reading is that the Pharisee
was so spiritually blind that he thought he actually had done all that God
required. He even prayed to
himself. He apparently thought that he
needed no forgiveness and was justified in worshiping himself and condemning
others. His was a very watered-down
religion, ultimately a form of idolatry that was focused on the glories of his
own life. The tax collector was the
complete opposite, focused only on his own need for God’s mercy as the chief of
sinners. As we begin to make our plans for intensified prayer, spiritual
reading, fasting, almsgiving, forgiveness, and repentance this Lent, we should
focus on turning away from every form of self-justification and every form of
condemnation of others. We should
embrace the spirituality of the Jesus Prayer as much as possible: “Lord Jesus
Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.” We should look for opportunities in our daily
lives to put the needs of others before our own, to live for others and not
simply for ourselves. And when we
struggle and fail to accomplish what we set out to do, we should kneel in
humility like the publican with no excuses, no passing of the blame, and no
judgment of anyone else for any reason.
We should learn to see ourselves as the chief of sinners with nothing to
present to the Lord except a plea for mercy and a humble resolve turn away from
our sins and to turn toward Him in how we live our lives each day.
Our
inflamed passions will tempt us to give up quickly when prayer, fasting,
almsgiving and other disciplines are difficult.
If we make progress in any discipline, we will likely be tempted to focus
on that and fall into pride. We should
be prepared for strange thoughts and odd desires to attempt to distract
us. We should be ready for a struggle,
but it is precisely through the battle that we may acquire the humility that
will open our souls to the healing power of the Lord Who lowered Himself to the
cross, the tomb, and Hades in order to rise in glory and conquer all forms of
corruption. And if we want to share in
the glory of His resurrection, then we must also lower ourselves by crucifying
our passions, by dying to sin, and doing all that we can to destroy the
corruptions of pride in our souls. In
other words, we must kill the Pharisee within us even as we cultivate the
spiritual clarity of the tax collector if we want to follow Christ to His crucifixion
and behold the brilliant light of the empty tomb. The only way to do that is by being in the
place of that humble publican who knew that he was the chief of sinners. May we all follow his blessed example during
our Lenten journey this year.
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